rehearsal.

Yesterday, I met up with my friend Kajsa for our first rehearsal of what I hope shall be a wonderful song and text performance this summer. Our rendezvous was in a beautiful small church looking out on the water in the middle of the city. It was nice and pieceful. The sun shone in through the tiny windows and onto the piano. Baby L played on the floor and Kajsa sung so my heart wanted to cry and laugh at the same time.

I still suffer consequences from the flu, so didn't get to sing yesterday, but I can't wait! We got an admirer in the form of a church volonteer guy who offered us lovely coffee and sat sipping his cup, stirring his spoon, getting lost in Kajsas singing. Did I mention she is lovely?

hope and nerves.

And so a plan is coming together. I am going to contribute with a give away for the launch of a course - more about that late march. One of my illustration will be up for winning, so soon one of my pieces of art will hopefully give joy to another person somewhere. I can't wait!

That said, I am also nervous. What if nobody likes the illustration? What if it is too simple? Too childish? What if I can't make a good enough print? Etcetera etcetera.

There is so much to learn. So many steps to take before having the business up and running with projects and products. All this technical stuff. For some reason I am scared of the technical stuff. Webb stuff. Every time I learn something new, no matter how small, my heart is pounding. Hahaha! But it is also a great challenge, because there is so much to gain. So much to do. So many people to get in touch with and get to know. And so much to read and watch and... It is easy to get overwhelmed.

Anyhow: Beginning of april then. It is my plan to launch my Etsyshop with a couple of illustrations and simultaneously launch a fun project here on the blog with a newsletter and everything! It will be all about creating and playing and I hope you will join me then! It will be free of course - it is supposed to be fun for me, fun for you, accessible for everyone, and a fun, inspiring sharing. I hope.

Love!

more winter walks.

I haven't been here for a number of days now. It is "decease season" in Stockholm now. The children get colds and snivels and fevers and flues in turn. I get some, but not all. So does P. I always fear the kids being home sick in advance. And then when they are, I end up thinking it is also really cosy. Sure, they are a bit whiny and don't want to drink, and don't want to eat. But they also want to snuggle up on the couch, want lots of hugs and kisses, to be read to. And we still take our winter walks. Lots of warm blankets and shawls in the pram to tuck them into when needed.

sun.

I just had to slip in an extra post. It is a big thing here in Sweden, when the sun gets that warm glow again. Mmmmmm. Lovely!

watching, getting inspired.

I have begun watching documentaries. About artists. And I can't believe I haven't discovered this before! It is so interesting and inspiring! Yesterday I started watching a series about aboriginal art and was totally blown away. The wonderful wonderful way they depict their homes. It's so very beautiful, and watching a couple of different artists while working was mesmerizing. Slowly, dot by dot or line by line, every now and then bursting into singing - telling the stories they are painting. I want to know more!

And I doodled a bit with dots, and gave the doodles really pretentious names :)...

Woman who can't find her true voice:

Female figure dancing across landscapes:

Love!

the dreams that have come true.

They seem so slow in coming true, my dreams. I have so many ideas, some of which totally set me on fire. But it is slow, oh indeed. To the point I am thinking: maybe this is illusion. Maybe I am just running around thinking about getting somewhere, but actually remaining at the exact same point.
Not true of course.
I just need to remember those dreams that I actually allready have made come true (random order):


I went to an actingschool.

I've been in two professional plays.

I went to India, hurrah!

I jumped out of a plane and did a skydive, woooooo!

I gave birth to two beautiful, healthy babies.

I met my dream man.

I participated in an amateur play after years of longing for acting.

I travelled with my sister (to Israel).

Me and my friend the operasinger had a concert in a church in the old city (Stabat Mater of Pergolesi).

Started my own business.

I went on a sunny, funny holiday with my love. In Thailand. And there I met elephants :).

So, dreams do come true. And they are not the last ones I am sure!

What are your dreams? What dreams have come true for you?

Love!

beauty of winter.

I long so much for spring. For the sunshine, the greenery starting to pop out of the ground and the branches. Not having to spend half an hour putting clothes on the children before we can even open the door.

But oh. Oh my. Winter can be so beautiful, so fairytaly. The trees outside our house are all clad in sparkly white stars. If you look closely on the ground there are wonderful patterns. Nature is the best artist!